January 2011
Farewell, 2010.
The last night of the year. I can hear people outside celebrating with flashes and explosions. Children are running around with sparklers in hand and older brothers are throwing firecrackers at their siblings’ feet. Others have chosen to gather together and raise drinks as they commemorate all of the good times they’ve had together as they usher in the new year. Someone will...
December 2010
“Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they...”
– Anais Nin (via momopotato)
Tonight
Tonight was possibly one of the darkest nights I’ve ever experienced. The clouds overhead made it impossible to see ten feet ahead, even with my headlights on. But then at times, it was one of the brightest. Bolts of lightning illuminated my world completely for a few brief moments and it was beautiful.
But it was a bright night for other reasons as well. I spent this evening with a...
“Love is an attempt at penetrating another being, but it can only succeed if the...”
– Octavio Paz (via kari-shma)
Hello and welcome.
A little over two months ago, I went through one of the hardest days of my life. My dog of 11 years passed away before I left for school. It was a Wednesday, I remember specifically because I had to leave early for school in order to set up my drums for chapel service. We have those on Wednesdays. I came into the kitchen, which is connected to the dining room, and I had known for a good while...
“Life is the first gift, love is the second, and understanding the third.”
– Marge Piercy (via kari-shma)
Hehe, haha.
This has been on Facebook for a while now, but I’m putting it here just to, you know…have it in the same spot as the rest of muh stuff. To store it safely in the archives, I suppose. This was a project for my bible class this year in which we had to effectively explain who we are. This project had absolutely no rules or guidelines, but the only restriction was that the presentation...
I don't know
I’m not sure what it is, but lately, I’ve been getting looks. Weird, almost eerie looks.
I got out of my car in the Walgreens parking lot today and there was a car parked three or four spaces from me, no other cars in between us. As I proceeded to get out of my vehicle, I noticed that this car was on, so naturally, I glanced into the driver-side window to see if anyone was occupying...
“The whole point of writing is to have something in your gut or in your soul or...”
– Jerome Lawrence
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“When Steve, Ben, and I wrote our characters into the screenplay, I felt the way...”
– Donald Miller (A Million Miles in a Thousand Years)
Merry Christmas!
I was laying in my bed last night, sleepless and full of thoughts. I was going through the point of the night when thoughts seem to be swirling and spiraling throughout your brain at the speed of light as you lay in the darkness with only your mind and the rhythmic sound of your own breathing to keep you company. At one point in my failed attempt at forcing myself into slumber, I compared this...
Merry Christmas!
I was laying in my bed last night, sleepless and full of thoughts. I was going through the point of the night when thoughts seem to be swirling and spiraling throughout your brain at the speed of light as you lay in the darkness with only your mind and the rhythmic sound of your own breathing to keep you company. At one point in my failed attempt at forcing myself into slumber, I compared this...
“I once listened to an Indian on television say that God was in the wind and in...”
– –Blue Like Jazz. Page 1.
“There’s nothing sadder in this world than to awake Christmas morning and not be...”
– Erma Bombeck
Uninspired!
I wonder if anyone had a good day today.
I did absolutely nothing today. I did nothing, and I hated every second of it. Because with it came self-pity and discouragement because I didn’t know how to express how I had been feeling. Certain days come along when one feels that everything attempted turns out to be boring and void. No one cares about what you’re feeling. You feel so...
Bum...badum dum.
My friend mentioned this to me the other night, and I’ve seriously been toying with the idea of possibly carrying around a small notepad to write down thoughts that pass through my head throughout the day. ‘Cause think about it (Hah. Think about it! …Get it?!), how many thoughts do you have in a single day? Answer: Daily Double! Just kidding. A lot. And where do those...
Thoughts that lead to more thoughts that lead to...
I think I have a serious problem. My hands and my feet are always ice, Alaskan-waters cold. Sometimes I feel like that guy from X-Men: chilling beverages with the touch of a finger tip. Thank the Lord for socks. I think I may need to invest in a pair of gloves in the near future. What’s the opposite of cold? OF COURSE. LAVA.
I don’t think lava gets the respect it deserves. ...
“I enjoy almost everything. Yet I have some restless searcher in me. Why is there...”
– Virginia Woolf
“When you live on your own for a long time, however, your personality changes...”
– Donald Miller
Win.
Today I found my old Gengar-themed Pokemon socks that my parents got me when I was about… 7 or so? I am now wearing them. They have grips on the bottoms, still goin’ strong. I miss the glory days. <3
“The unhappy person resents it when you try to cheer him up, because that means...”
– Tom Robbins
“There was nothing more to conquer: an ocean of peace lay before me. To be...”
– Henry Miller (The Colossus of Maroussi)
Meandering, meandering.
It is when we are at our lowest when we ask for help, but it is when we are making our way to the trenches that we push those away who might offer it.
“When someone you love dies, and you’re not expecting it, you don’t...”
– John Irving (A Prayer for Owen Meany)
99 Days and Counting.
Tomorrow is the celebration within the senior class that marks the beginning of double-digits in the countdown of days until graduation. Part of me says, “Yeah. Yeah. This is good. High school is almost done and I am going to delve into the process of expanding my horizon through higher education,” while the other is saying, “Holy Hannah Montana, what am I doing with my...
More words from Donald Miller
So I’m still liking this book Blue Like Jazz. I’m in the stage after the book where you kind of wish you didn’t know what it was already about so you could read it again. So I’m flipping through it and I’m reading some notes that I took in it, and I came across this one random section that Miller uses to illustrate how difficult it is to hear from God and how...
Prayer.
So I just got back from youth group and we had a big, long prayer session where we took prayer requests and we prayed for each other and it was fine. However, I was among the ones who remained silent—and it’s not because I didn’t like what was going on—it’s that I feel like I am being looked down upon for not praying. I pray. I pray often; it’s just not something that I...
Word of the day!
Palingenesis \ pal-in-JEN-uh-sis \ , noun;
1. Rebirth; regeneration. 2. In biology, embryonic development that reproduces the ancestral features of the species. 3. Baptism in the Christian faith. 4. The doctrine of transmigration of souls. Origin: Palingenesis is the combination of two Greek roots: palin , “again,” and genesis , “source.”